long break..

hmm...lama suda x lawat2 blog sy ney...rindu pula...lpas ney update lahr selalu ney blog..

gara-gara kolony sy...

kmu smua taw bh kn 'kolony'..??sepa2 yg pkai celcom 2 taw lahr 2..be4 ney sy ada post something about a gurl kn??..kmu taw..skrg kmi x sma2 sda...cedihnya sy pkirkan smula...maw taw apa sebab kmi brek..?1 ary 2 sy chat2 dgn some1 yg pkai nickname remaja33..tp mula2 2 sy x taw langsung yg e2 tue exgf sy..then dya tnya2 lahr either sy ada gf ataw xda..then sy jwab lahr xda..tp bkn mksud sy maw curang sm dya..cuma msa 2 sy borink kn..jd sy pn maw cri kwn utk hilangkn borink sy..exgf sy ney pn langsung x pnah contact sy slps dya operation ary 2..pas 2 slma seminggu sy chat dgn remaja33..bru exgf sy msg dgn sy..dya ckp smpai aty koe ckp yg koe xda gf kat sbah..terkejutnya sy bla dya ckp yg remaja33 tue dya..start dr ary 2..kmi x bercontact langsung.tp sy mc blm declare yg kmi sda pttus smpai 1 ary 2..sy mnta tlng dgn spupu sy.sy suru dya kcau lahr remaja33 ney..trus kmu taw apa remaja33 ckp..bf dya bkn c LERRY..tp c 'jj'.sy x taw lahr sepa 2...pas jak sy taw..trus sy declare lahr perpisahan kmi..(uits)..yg sy sedih..dya tuduh2 sy curang dgn dya..pd hal dya sendiri yg wat g2 sm sy..slama sy kapel dgn dya..x pnah sy curang sm dya..yg dlm kolony 2 cuma kebetulan n sy xda niat langsung maw curang..tp xpa lahr..maybe dya lebih bhagea dgn org len berbanding dgn sy...tp 1 jak yg mc jd persoalan bg sy..btl2 kar dya wat smua 2 coz sbab sy pnya slh sndri ataw disebabkan oleh penyakit dya..klw dya wat g2 sma sy(curang knuk) sebab dya x bahagea dgn sy n sebab sy ckp sy xda gf d sbah..e2 sy blh terima...tp klw dya wat g2 disebabkan oleh penyakit dya..sy xkn pernah maafkan dya...start dr kmi brek..sy x men kolony sda..sy sda quit g2 lohr..knun2 maw kc lupa dya....pengajaran yg sy dpt dr smua ney:
1) klw kmu 2 ada pasangan sda..jgn lahr x kmu maw mengaku single n xda bf/gf..
2) klw kmu maw uji kesetiaan psgan kmu,jgn smpai perpisahan terjadi(haha)
3) jgn wat kptsan ikut suka hati kmu jak tanpa mengetahui perkara sebenar.
4) klw kmu btl2 syg dgn some1 tue..bincang lahr dlu be4 wat sesuatu kptsan..jgn ikutkan hati..
5) byk lg tp sy x pndai buat ayat..haha




smuanya gara-gara kolony lahr ney...klw bkn sebab kolony x gak sy pisah dgn dya..grrrr..tp xpa lahr..yg penting sy dpt pengajaran drpd smua ney...(^______________________________^)  

baru 3 kali jumpa then.............

baru2 ney sy berkenalan dgn some1..e2 pn bkn sy sendiri yg kenal dgn dya..kwn sy yg kenalkan kami...actually,dya dgn kwn sy ney dah lma knal..so its easy lahr utk dya knalkan kami..msa 2 kami sma2 baru broken heart..(kali lahr)..masing2 baru dikecewakan..jd,mula2 tue..sy langsung x terpikir mw serius2 dgn dya ney..yg ada d hati sy cuma maw kc men2 dya sj...tp bla sda lma2 kami bersms,b'call...timbul pula perasaan syg sy dgn dya..tp yg sy x sangka..dya dulu yg luahkan perasaan dya sma sy..n then dya pula yg bwa sy kapel...trus sy tanya lahr knpa mw kapel sma sy...then dya jwb,"sy skit aty bh,kta gaduh2,men syg2,merajuk2..tp xda apa2 hbgn,jd sy bwa koe kapel lahr" dya ckp..hahaha dya jugak 2 ahr yg dulu2 men syg2 sm sy..jd sy bls lahr jugak..tp klw yg gaduh2 tue,sy lahr yg dulu2..maw taw knpa.??hahaha..jgn lahr sy malu mw g taw..hihihiii...mula2 tue sy ragu2 dgn dya,bkn pa..kami knal blm pn smpai sebulan..dr start kami knal,x pernah pn kami jumpa...dlm hp sj...bkn x maw jumpa..tp masing2 pn ada mslh...bla sy ada msa,dya plak xda msa..dan begitu lahr sebaliknya..jd..sy pn jual2 mhal lahr knuk 2 tym dya bwa2 kapel..hahaha...tp bkn jual mhal bh 2,sy just mw tengok sejauh mna dya jujur mw bwa sy kapel..then bbrpa hari lpas 2,kami kapel lahr..sy mlas bh maw kc gantung2 ney...nti dya bosan plak tunggu sy...jd tarikh kami kapel ialah..2.july.2011 (lupa sda jam brpa)..jd lpas kami kapel 2..rancak lahr kami bersms,bercall 2..lg rancak dr besa..slma kami kapel 2...x sah klw sy x mrh2 dya...msti dlm seminggu 2...ada jak kami gaduh...tp x lama lahr...then bagus blik,pas tue start dr dya ckp dya ada exam,kami x pnah sda contact...haha...pendekkan ceta,4 hari be4 cuti semester sy hbs..dya bwa jumpa..tp msa tue,sy x on sim celcom sy,sbab x pnah lg kn dya contact sy start dr dya ada trial exam...sekali sy on yg jm5 petang sda...ada msg dr dya..tp msg tue dr jm 8 pagi lg..haha...jd besok2(ary khamis) nya tue kami jumpa lahr...lpas dya blik dr skula...sy tunggu dya d megalong donggongon...dr pagi lg..dya bwa jumpa jm 2.30 bh tue tp sy sengaja trun awl...sy maw beli brg maw bg dya kn..jd sy ddk2 lahr d pentas megalong tue tunggu dya...then dya smpai lahr tue dgn kwn2 dya...men terkejut sy nmpk dya...wow!!cute sgt..tinggi kami hmpir sma..tp sy lg tinggi lahr dr dya..hehe..trus kami jln kaki lahr tue pg d taman2 dkt ruma h dya..tp kejap jak kmi jmpa sebab dya ckp dya x blh lma2,nti fmly dya mrh,tp esok dya maw jmpa lg knuk..oyar,lpa...sy ada bwa mangga n baju sy dr rumah pula 2...dya yg minta...jd sy bg lahr dya mangga n baju tue be4 dya blk..tp hari tue sy x sempat balik ruma,kami tdr d hotel(sy dgn sepupu sy)...sebab mlm tue kami minum d kedai pakcik sy..tp sy x bg taw dya yg sy minum n sy tdr d hotel...sy tipu dya..sy ckp sy tdr d ruma pakcik sy...klw dya taw sy tipu dya..mesti dya mrh sgt dgn sy ney..e2 lahr 1st tym sy tipu dya..tp xpa lahr..nti2 lahr sy bg taw dya..msti dya phm..then mlm2 tue msa kami d hotel..dya msg sy..dya ckp bsok mgkin x dpt jumpa sy sebab sister dya beranak smlm...jd dya terpaksa buat smua kerja2 d rumah dya,trus sedih lahr sy mlm 2...nsib bek lahr yg pagi dya msg,bwa jmpa d tmpt yg sm..tp kami jmpa pn stgh jam sj,sebab dya ckp dya mw pg hospital jaga kakak dya lg..tym tue..dya mnta htr smpai d blkng rumah dya...sy htr lahr...trus be4 kami berpisah tue...kami berpeluk lahr kejap...then tiba2,timbul keberanian sy kiss pipi dya..hahaha...klw ngat blk,sy malu woo...hahaha..pas tue sy blk ruma lahr...esoknya..8 jam be4 sy pnya flight dya msg sy..dya ckp dya d hospital skrg,n dya mnta kwn sy..mula2 tue sy x maw pg...sebab ary tue ipar sy bwa pg open house d office dya,,tp bla dya ckp dya kesejukan...sy rasa kecian pula...then sy terpaksa cancel maw pg ruma terbuka tue n sy terpaksa juga tipu fmly sy..sy ckp "sy x dpt ikt kmu,sy maw pg tngk kwn sy d hospital..dya sakit skrg"..nsib bek drng x byk tnya..trus...sy pkai lahr mtor abg ipar sy tue pg d hospital likas...smpai sna..bla sy tngk dya...terkejut sy nmpk muka dya pucat jak...kesejukan...sy bg lahr dya sweater yg sy bwa dr ruah td..then kami jln2 pg taman d blkng hospital likas tue..actually,dya kna suru jaga kakak dya d sna,tp msa melawatt sda hbs..then dya mw blik..tp dya kna suru tunggu sna smpai km 12 tengahari..e2 lahr dya dya mnta kwn sy tue..start dr jam10 smpai jm12 kami ddk2 d taman tue..mna ada tmpt len mw pg..pg dlm pn,dya kesejukan..untung jgak lahr sy dtng pg kwn dya d sna..sy dpt gmbr dya..hehe...jd bla smpai jm12..kami pn berpisah lahr....sy balik rumah..dya pg jaga kakak dya..smpai jak d rumah..kpala sy rasa sakit sgt...then sy tdr lahr tue....jm 4 lebih baru sy bangun...tinggal 2 jam lg be4 sy pg airport,,,actually tinggal 4 jam lg tp kena standby 2 jam awl be4 flight kn..jd sy mesti bertolak dr rumah jm6...be4 sy jln pg airport,sy pg salam2 dgn saudara2 sy d bwah..diorang sdng minum..3 gelas montoku juga sy kna suru minum..yg lucu,diorng kc tapau sy 1 botol montoku..hahaha...sedih juga woo maw tinggalkan diorang...4 bln cuti tue mcm blm ckup lg bg sy...lpas slam drng smua..sy kna htr lahr pg airport tue..lpas chekin smua..sy pg d lobby menunggu flight..then,be4 sy terbang sy kol dya lahr...coz sy sda janji kn sma dya maw kol d..msa sy call dya tue dya menangis ney...dya ckp "dadie,jgn lahr dadie blk"..sy pn hampir maw nangis sda..tp tahan sj..byk org kn masa tue,..pas tue..kami pn terbang lahr meninggalkan sabah..sepatutnya,flght kami smpai d LCCT jm 10.30..tp kami lmbt sejam n terpaksa singgah d lapangan terbang johor sekejap..weather problem..lpas cuaca sda ok...kami pn terbang pg LCCT..kira2 jm2.30 pagi baru kami smpai d LCCT..sy pn try lahr call dya..mna taw blm tdr...trus sy call lahr...tutt2..tutt2.lma jgak kna angkat..pas tue dya angkat...suara dya blh taw..suara yg baru bangun..haha,tp mc nangis2 lg...kcian...trus sy ckp lahr knpa sy lmbt call..pas sy g taw smua...sy suru dya tdr blk..pas tue lg...kami pg kenny rogers mkn...kwn sy ney lpar sda...haha...x lma pas tue...bas kolej kami pn smpai lahr...trus kami jln pg kolej..stgh jam jak kali tue,kami smpai kolej ...smpai2 kolej jak...sy sempat on9 lg skjap..then baru sy tdr...haha..

pas tue..mlm ary ahad klw x silap sy..sy kol dya..tp sekejap jak...then...tba2 teroff...sy try2 kol blik..voicemail jak...mula2 tue sy mrh lahr..trus sy x lg kcau dya...3 hari lpas tue..sy kol blik..mc jugak voicemail...then sy msg lahr...tp bla sy msg..terdelivered pula..sy pn heran lahr...then sy tnya lahr kwn2 sy...knpa sy call x dpt..tp bla sy msg dpt plak..then..kwn sy jwb.."dya sdng bercall dgn org len"..trus perasaan sy pn rsa len2 sda...mrh pn ada,jeles pn ada,mcm2 lahr yg ada..trus,tba2 ada msg dr dya dtng..its sound like this"my d hsptl ney...cek drh..jap ahr."..mula2 tue sy x pcya...biarpn sy tw dya mang ada penyakit alergik..trus dya mnta call..trus sy call dya lahr..then dya g taw smua knpa voicemail jak hp dya...tp sy dpt rasa ada something yg dya kc rahsia dr sy...sy paksa2 dya spya dya bg taw sy...last2 dya bg taw sy lahr..dya ckp.."dadie my ada ada mw g taw ney..tp dadie jan mrh ahr"..then sy ckp ok..ckp jak..trus dya ckp lahr...tp bkn dya ckp trus...dya mcm takut maw kc taw sy..sy ngat dya mw ckp yg dya ada org len kar,apa kar...mcm2 sda yg sdng ada d otak sy..then,sy pn mrh lahr..."ckp jak bh!"..trus dya ckp lahr "my sdang tunggu result blood testing,either my kna kanser tulang or luekimia"..trus sy diam jak lpas sy dgr apa yg dya ckp..sy rsa bersalah pula pikir yg mcm2 psal dya..x taw knpa,tiba2..air mata sy kluar,tp sy blm nangis lg..x sangka2 dya ada penyakit g2...sy ingatkan dya ada alergik sj..dya tnya lahr either sy nangis or x..tp sy jwab sy dmam...trus sy off hp..sy x tahan sda mw nangis..trus 1 ary tue sy nangis sj...tp kwn2 1 bilik sy x taw yg sy nangis...1 rang jak yg perasan sy nangis...c junaidi..haha..trus mlm tue dya msg sy...dya mnta call,then sy call lahr...dya bg tw yg dya kna kanser tulang n perlu kna operate ASAP..1 kali lg air mata sy kluar...pas tue sy kc ptus talian sy ckp kta bersms sj..padahal..sy x tahan maw nangis..sy pn x taw lahr..dlm hdup sy..1st  tym lahr ada pompan yg nangis utk sy...n ney lahr ke-2 kali sy nangis dlm hdup sy after my mother pass away..sy nangis sebab sy tkt sy kehilangan dya mcm sy kehilangan mama sy...sebab sy dpt rasa yg dya ney different compare with d other women i've date be4..jd yg pagi ary sabtu lalu,dya pn kna operate lahr..syukur lahr kpd Tuhan..dya selamat dr operation tue..sy gembira lahr jugak...tp d dlm hati sy mc lg ada rsa sedih..byk persoalan yg mc ada d pkiran sy,n yg blik2 sy ingat ney.."adakah dya sda pulih sepenuhnya dr kanser tuelang tue"...tp,slah jgak kn klw sy pkir yg bkn2 sma dya...sepatutnya sy pkir yg positif psal dya...tp disebabkan sgt sedih..sy x dpt pkir e2 smua lg...baru hari jumaat yg lpas dya kluar dr hospital..tp dr start dya hbs pembedahan tue..sy jarang sda contact dya..yala,kn baru operate..x blh byk bergerak..skrg ney sy just tunggu dya msg sy...sy x maw ganggu dya.,biarpn sy rindu sgt2 dgn dya..tp sy terpaksa tahan jugak..utk kebaikan dya jugak kn..nsib bek juga sy da gmbr n baju dya(lupa bg taw..yg hari ke-2 kami jumpa,dya ada bg sy baju dya..),dya yg xda gmbr sy pn blh tahan rindu sm sy..xkn sy x blh kn..hehehe..apa2 pn,sy hrp dya akan bertambah baik n cepat sembuh...sebab thn ney dya ada exam SPM tue...hrp2 bln 11 ney sy dpt blik sabah..sy ada ckp sma dya maw bwa dya pg rumah sy,sebab bln 11 ney saudara sy kawin kn,e2 pn klw diorang jd kawin..klw xda halangan...kami akan tetap jumpa jugak..xkan lahr baru 3 kali jumpa,dya sda maw pergi tinggalkan sy..x sanggup sy,mamy sda janji maw msak soto utk dadie tue..jan lupa ahr my..hmmm....

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ST12-JANGAN PERNAH BERUBAH (original clip)

jangan pernah berubah...

memang btl lahr org ckp...some1 tue blh berubah dlm jangka msa yg singkat jak tanpa kta sedari...terutamanya bla kta x pernah contact dya dlm jangka masa yg lama n then kta contact dya blik..entah lahr d mna silapnya...maybe e2 lahr kesudahan dya klw terlalu ego kn..tp bla kta dah sygkn some1 tue,biar brpa lma pn kta x bertegur,perasaan syg tue tetap akan ada d hati...melainkan hati dya sda direbut oleh org lain..jd,klw kmu x nak some1 yg kmu syg 2 direbut org lain,jgn lahr pernah tinggalkan dya...sentiasa lahr kmu ada d sisi dya...n jgn lahr pernah berubah ok!hehe

i hate..

knpa lahr masi ada org yg x pandai menghargai apa yg ada d dpan diorang...x cukup kar dgn apa yg diorang miliki skrg??dasar pnya .........aisss...mls lahr maw ckp...pas 2 bla sda kna tinggal baru menyesal...mcm2 lahr yg maw d buat...maw bnuh diri lahr..apa lahr...adeiii...buduh btl lahr..haha..lucu plak sy dgr...x taw apa lahr cra2 utk bg org2 mcm ney pengajaran or motivasi ney...bljr lahr menghargai klw kta maw dihargai blk...btl x??hihi...pas 2 kn...ada certain manusia ney..x dpt lupakan msa silam dya..even masa silam e2 sgt menyakitkan dya..even ex-gf or bf diorang sakitan hati diorang mcm mna pn...tetap juga diorang x dpt lupakn diprang...smpai2...ada yg sanggup wat apa sj utk dpt blk ex-bf/gf diorang..wlaupn diorang taw ex2 diorang 2 sda berpunya...sempit btl lahr pemikiran org2 yg mcm ney...otak diorang x blh fikir kar...bkn 1 jak lelaki n pompan  d dunia ney bh...bak kata pepatah yg tlh diubahsuai oleh mr L...bunga bkn sekuntum..walaupun kumbang hampir pupus...:P..haha...tp maybe e2 lahr cra hidup manusia...setiap manusia lain2 bh kn dya pnya ragam..rambut sma hitam...hati x sma..tp menurut kajian sy...99% ianya banar...hihi..anyway..I HATE org yg x pndai menghargai other people!!fuck off!

horoscope

Keep in mind that people born with Gemini horoscope is the sign of the twin... There is a part of them that needs love and security, and then there's the stronger part of them that needs stimulation and novelty. To remain in a relationship with a Gemini you must be able to satisfy their emotional, mental and sexual needs. People with Gemini horoscope love to laugh, travel, spend money, and are eager for new experiences.

Since people born under the Gemini sign know a little about many things and almost everything interests them, you can make a great impression by discussing a topic in depth. Geminis appreciate honesty and sincerity in a person, so make sure you speak your mind, even if you don't share the same point of view.

Additionally, Geminis don't always stick to one topic of interest, since variety is something they enjoy and find intriguing. These very social and energetic people tend to have a sharp tongue. They are quick to criticize and tend to use words as weapons, so if you're an emotional person that takes things to heart, you may want to avoid this relationship.

When in love, people born under the Gemini horoscope tend to be quite possessive and inclined to be jealous. Never give them reason to suspect that you're not faithful to them, they don't like to be deceived, and won't put up with it. Once a Gemini has found someone that they can trust and that fills all their needs, they will be an exciting and devoted partner.